My heart Aches.. My Shoulder is starting to hurt again from last year when i tore the muscle tissue in it, my gut hurts.. I hate how i feel… My life is going straight down the shitter lately, and like a spider its unlikely to crawl back out..

Nothings gone right.. With my emotional breakdown.. people being douche bags.. Me getting sick.. me getting sick of me.. things between friends.. I shouldnt care as much about her as i do but i do… For some reason every single Fucking time her ‘friend’ comes up in anything i want to punch something… i dislike this kid with a burning passion of a thousand dying suns and i dont even know him… and then another one of her friends, i know how he feels.. never gonna get the girl.. it hurts man.. Peace to you.. hope things work out..

But things suck.. i hate how i hate the kid that i dont know but i just do.. i want to punch him in the fucking nose.. but i wont.. because im not that kind of person.. but GAHHH

everything sucks.. I’ve ruined so much for people.. and im a douche bag and a half.. i hate who i am.. i used to think this was the best Me i could be.. But i might be wrong..

I’m thinking of trying to change.. start fresh.. not have the problems i have now.. get out of peoples way.. stop being a douche bag..

I’ll let you all know if i change or not.. or if i even try..